LSS...

"Just when i thought i was over you,
just when i thought i could stand on my own,
oh, baby these dreams they come crashing through,
and i just can't go on without you..."

This song (erik santos' remake) has been on my mind for two days now and up to this moment i'm still clueless of its title. Help me!!! hehe.. this song is for someone so dear to me...Lol..

2 lbs. gained!

hoist!!! dun sa mga nagpapataba sakin, you know who you are, i gained 2lbs in just one week!!! Hmp!!!
i hope you're happy now, waah, i don't want to see the "monay" cheeks i used to have.

PS. Bes, pano ba yan, natatalo nko sa goal ntin, guess ikaw lang ang forever na magiging mapayat..

back to school!!!

yes! i am going back to school! San Beda College here i come!!! Now i'll be fulfilling my dream of becoming a law student.. Last may 21, i enrolled for my 1st term, and hell, it was really tiring and oh so difficult, far different from what i am used to.. Although they had the steps printed on a sheet of paper, the task was too effortfull. UP enrollment was so easy that i could finish it in about 2 hours, but SBC's process was far longer and time consuming. A lot of places to go and a lot of things to do. My legs were totally killing me from running around and going up and down. But i had no choice. (and that's the sad part of it.)
I'm really excited for i'll be exploring a whole new world, but part of me still is overly nervous and worried for this decision of mine entail lots of sacrifices and challenges. I hope i'd pull this off..
While i was enrolling, i've decided to read some of the bulletins posted and to my surprise, i found out that San Beda has the highest passing rate for the bar exams followed by Ateneo and then by UP!!! i still think and believe UP has the best law school.
I've met several remarkable and annoying people too;

Diana - why are there lots of UP students in san beda??? it's nice to meet a co-isko in a new school.. we'll show them how good we are... hope we're in the same section..
The girl from UST - i forgot to ask your name...kmsta nman ang pagtanong satin kung cum laude tayo? haay, our hands are oh so tired from fillin out those forms. c yah!
Mr. Cres - i'll never forget how harsh your treatment is... i'll prove you wrong.. i swear..
The lady from the Law Guidance - Ma'am thanks for all your help.. mahirap din po ang law sa UP hindi lang halata...hehe
Ung crush ko - i'll bump into you again!!! hahaha, next time i'll know your name and you'll know mine..

Haay, i hope i made the right decision. I'll go for it!!


PS: Zeph, please do find your old notes, that'll be of great help. thanks.

my father's words

"the biggest problem we had with you was how we would be able to explain the concept of failure and somehow make you understand what it is."

May 17, 2008, before having lunch, my dad and i found this box filled with our family pictures. Of course all pictures were taken in the past, some of my pics were taken when i was really really, really young, as in. There's this pic taken when i was around 2-3 years old, my mom said "kulang na lang apple, may lechon de leche na tayo", hahahaha. And some were taken during my early childhood years highlighting my oh so ugly duckling stage, where i was really fat. (i'll have some scanned and i'll post it really soon). It was nice seeing them, until i saw this pic, we were playing "hampas palayok" and it was my turn to make hampas the palayok, so i was blindfolded. Imagine that tiny me, almost close to 3 feet carrying a pole of the same height. Well, my mom told me that i didn't get to hit the palayok, and i lost but at least i tried. Then my dad told me, "alam mo nung bata ka, whenever you joined parlor games, and kapag ma-oout ka na, nagwawala ka and you were so angry." (even doing a reenactment.). To my shock, i only said "talaga?" and then he continued, "you were always competitive and you don't want to lose." Until he uttered these words, ""the biggest problem we had with you was how we would be able explain the concept of failure and somehow make you understand what it is.". according to my oh so clever dad, i was so used to winning and i was so competitive that they were worried because i never experienced failure. Well that went on, up until i lost at one competition in 4th grade. (and, my mind was really digging deep, and yeah, they were damn right...) That moment really sucked, and i certainly did remember that, i lost at my first ever modeling competition. harhar, tears were all over my face that night, and i kept on asking myself why i lost? i got over it eventually and i continued to live my life normally.

Thinking over the years i've lived, there were numerous competitions and insurmountable challenges that came my way. And it came to hit me, that i was indeed a competitive person. I never liked losing, winning was always what i wanted. I was a complete total fighter. Now, i so believe my friends, i really am what they think of me.

Guess i already had my competitive part of me since i was a kid, and until now, i still am. Before failures and disappointments brought tears, but eventually i realized that this is all part of the game of life. I hate failing but i know i can and will manage to pull it through. As we grow and age, we mature and we learn. And that's what's important, we discover who we are and we define our purpose.

"We can't win everything, but I'm ready to give everything a shot"
-rlpv

cinderella

Cinderella, a fairy tale that touches many hearts and fantasies, especially those of women who dare to dream. Perhaps, the story of Cinderella, that is, a girl suffering from her evil step mom who eventually gets the chance to meet her prince in a ball under a 12midnight magical curfew, and then loses her glass slipper while running and getting her dreams will always be told and forever be evolving.

During the past month I saw the third sequel of this Disney movie on Disney channel, scenario: Anastasia gets a hand of the magic wand of the fairy Godmother, and the step mom made a spell which turned back time. The time before the ball started. Now, Anastasia becomes the love interest of the Prince. And Cinderella still continues to be the maid.The evil step sisters and the evil step mom succeeds but in the long run, guess what, "surprisingly", they fail. Of course, Disney won't make a sour ending for this utterly beautiful story. So Cinderella did eventually again regained what was rightfully hers and lived the life of a true princess.

But what if?

What if Cinderella never got the happy ending she wanted? What if Anastasia did become the princess? What would happen? Would Cinderella ever find her happy ending? Would Cinderella be Cinderella?

I would surely like to know...

"No matter how your heart is beating, if you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true."

maria sharapova: new no. 1

Back to back tennis entries for me...

This is for the tennis enthusiasts out there, now that Justine Henin retired and requested that she be removed out of the wta ranking, "The Golden Girl", Maria Sharapova is bound to be the next world no. 1. Sharapova is not new to the no. 1 ranking for she has been on top before. She first ascended at the number one spot during the year 2005. And since then she has spent a total of 15 weeks in the top spot.
A personal favorite of mine, Maria has the capabilities of being a top player. Her close to perfection beauty and physique make her one of the prettiest faces in the world of tennis. She has powerful ground strokes and strong flat services which really define her prowess, making her win 3 out of the four grand slam titles, missing only the French open trophy. So far she's having a good year, after suffering plagues of injury, she has recovered and now in good form.
Maria is also known for her trademark - "shrieks!!!" That loud loud shriek! She has been ultimately famous for it. Maria won't be maria if she's not shrieking and shouting.
At a very young age Maria has achieved a lot not only in the field of tennis but in her modeling career as well. I believe she earned more money with the nike commercial she did than what she has won in any tennis match. She also, i believe is an ambassador of some sort.
Truly Maria Sharapova is worthy of the world no. 1 ranking and she will be staying there for a long time, hopefully longer than henin.
I salute Maria. "Come on!"

Justin Henin retires

Now this is a shocker. At the age of 25, tennis star and current world no. 1 Justin Henin, decides to give up her career in tennis and retire. (www.wtatour.com)
Perhaps Justin Henin is one of the greatest female tennis players ever to walk earth. Known for her extra effective and lethal strokes, she has made a mark on tennis history. Her greatness and skills are shown in her countless trophies in the atp tour and in the grandslams, having 3 of 4 titles - only wimbledon is out of here hands. She has proven her worth and she is indeed the queen of clay!!! Her success will always be admired and her style will forever be unscathed.
I wish she didn't retire this soon. She still has an insurmountable amount of talent within her.. I'll surely miss henin..

Love and expectations: another quote reflection...

"i woke up fallen so deeply in love with the wrong person,
wrong time and wrong place
But then, one day, I've realized that
it's not the person, time nor place that's wrong...
But my expectations of a love story..

This was sent via sms by *prince ace*. Like my previous entry, i did make a reflection on a tagalog quote, now i'm doing it again.
Being a cheesy and mushy creature, quotes like this really hit me. As a result, i relate it to my own life.
I have had my own series of falling in love moments and as of now, nothing worked out. *sad puppy eyes*... Well, we never even got to where i wanted us to be. And that made me wonder about the things that were wrong.
Reading this quote made me conclude that maybe, just maybe, my expectations of my version of a love story may have been the reason why nothing worked out. I've come to realize that there was nothing wrong with the person i loved, with the time we were in love and even with the place we were in to. What i was thinking and expecting was the culprit. Expectations really could kill you and kill the love you have for another person.
I was too idealistic. I pictured love as a feeling or a state close to perfection. But i guess it's not. Falling in love was totally breath taking but getting hurt was the complete opposite. It's like breathing under water, impossible and difficult... I expected that the person i fell in love with would fall in love with me too. Turned out that i was the only one giving love and i received nothing. i expected that we were getting there but i assumed too much. We got ultimately close and i thought that this was the sign, but it turned out to be all wrong, all that happened were all under the bounds of friendship, nothing more nothing less. I failed to recognize my place in that person's life, and for that, I was left behind, left alone - aching..
I moved on eventually. (Hmmm, did i?) Now I live my own life, not under the shadow of the love i felt for that person before, but with the love i have for myself and the hope of finding my one true love. One thing's for sure, lessons were learned and i am stronger now. Now, what i have with me are not expectations but guidelines that are meant to aid my heart whenever it beats, whenever it falls, whenever it starts to love and whenever it starts to get hurt.

Kuya Marco at 26!

Happy birthday kuya Marco!!! I know green is your fave color that's why i'm writing this entry, obviously in green. lol. Well, you've turned 26 na and this marks a new year for you. A new year to live with many things to explore and learn.
The party (as it may seem) we had at relyn's place was really fun. Kahit na it rained, sobra! We planned that talga so as to repay you for all the good deeds you've done for us. You deserve it cause you've shown us much love na worth reciprocating.. Naks! that's how much we love you. Mielle had the idea of throwing this surprise chorva for you and we all thought about giving you gifts, raymond said na dapat daw banner and balloons, the cake was relyn's idea,and "the memory box" was courtesy of me, myself and i.haha, aun, i didn't get to see what's in it na eh, just wish that you'll remember us every time you open it. Aun, we incoporated it all kaya instant party effect na nga.hehe
Aun, sana you had a great time and you liked what we prepared. Thank you for everything, for sharing your life and thanks for the friendship. Cheers to a good life! "i hate you!"hehe, peace.

Btw, here's a clip of what happened at relyn's place.

P.S.
-Fave ko na ang kare2 ngaun and i eat gulay na.
-how's bearie and nial? i miss them na, sorry hindi ko cla nasundo.
-(ang dami ng PS' ko)
-sleepover!!! 801 ulet!
-mcdo, jbee, kfc, tokyo2 o yellow cab? pili ka.haha-i eat a lot na ulet!*hate it!* kaw kasi!..

sports: roger federer, the king of tennis, still...

For some years, i have been really interested with tennis and i must say that i am a fan of the game and some players. Watching tennis games on tv has been a hobby of mine, even if my brother insists that it's totally boring. I have learned the game just by mere visuals and i have known a bit of everything too. What's great with this sport is that every match is unique because of the style of every player. Speaking of tennis players, there's this one who made me appreciate the craft of playing the game, one person who exemplifies the versatility of a great tennis player, one athlete who never fails to impress me when he's on the court, and that is, ROGER FEDERER, yes, the swiss player who has been on the top of the rankings for like a lifetime.hehe He has ruled the game with authority and for me he is the best player ever. Although he haven't won the french open yet, his success as a tennis player for this era is pretty difficult to match nor even get close to. With all the titles under his belt, he need not to prove his worth.

This year though, the world no. 1 is on a blur. he had consecutive loses and surprisingly, he only won one title so far,and that is the estoril open. He's missing something in his game, i don't know if its the drive to win or the confidence that he'll be able to win. I wonder why this is happening? For clay courts, i really understand that roger's having a difficult time especially if he's battling it out with nadal, but for hard courts, how could he lose?

However, the occurrence of the consecutive loses has not ousted him from the top spot. The last time nadal and federer faced was on the court of monte carlo i think, and as expected Nadal won. But i really admire Nadal for his humility and admiration for federer, he somewhat said that roger is still the no.1 in the world and even if he had a number of loses, the fact that he is still no. 1, makes him STILL the greatest player. Which i think is ultimately true, maybe roger started the tennis year quite unprepared but i'm sure he'll make up for it. I believe he'll win Roland Garros this year.. I wish him all the best.

to my girl, relyn...

with relyn..miss you girl!

Gosh, Relyn Tan.... I'm so missing you so much... i got used to you being around that i cannot even forget about all the happy moments we had during the production and the preparation days. I'm starting to miss our jiggy dance moves and super power lifts. Never knew that this pike-size body of mine could lift someone as tall as you, someone your size. Much thanks for coming into my life, thanks for the friendship. I'm so lucky to have met you. btw, i grabbed the photos from your multiply account. :)

with relyn and pam after the production

Relyn this is for you..

10 Things that will always remind me of "Relyn Tan"
1. The name relyn itself, and the right way of pronouncing it.
2. Country Style, that's the topic of our first conversation, u love it as much as i do.
3. The excessive use of "OMG-Oh my God!".lol
4. The ronli-relyn dance team up.damn were good!!!
5. The colored socks - i love the pink and green combi.
6. Smile ala relyn. unique and one of a kind.
7. relyntan.multiply.com
8. Your "Is that relyn with a tan" shirt!!! love it.
9. Your sincerest friendship and purest love.
10. And everything else in between!

With Kuya Herbie and Relyn

I'm so not regretting the day I met you. You're one of a kind, and you'll always be in my heart. tc, goodluck in all of your endeavors. see you on the 10th. Work hard, Party harder!!! mwah!

a quote...some reflections..

last may 2, 2008 at around 8:40am, a friend of mine, Allan, sent me as sms, a quote, a tagalog quote, and it goes like this..

"kapag pinag-agawan ka, malamang maganda o gwapo ka. Sumama ka sa mabuti, hindi sa mabait. Sa marunong hindi sa matalino, sa mahal ka, hindi sa gusto ka."

I sent this to some other friends and to my surprise a lot of them sent back their reactions. Really, this quote is ironic and "matalinhaga". One friend of mine, Dey, said that this quote made her think what the difference of mabuti and mabait; marunong at matalino really is. Reflecting on what she said, i found myself, staring at an empty space and thinking, thinking ultimately hard. What does the quote exactly mean??? How do you differentiate similar terms??? well, I think it all depends on the usage and in the context of the reader.

For me, mabuti and mabait are different because the former describes someone who is good. Mabuti - meaning, someone who is genuinely good. The latter meanwhile, mabait, is another thing. Mabait - meaning, someone who is kind. Maybe in relationships, mabuti assumes the role of someone who encompasses the goodness and all the good qualities of a person worth loving. Someone who can be as sweet as an angel and as naughty as a demon.lol. Hey, don't get me wrong having someone "mabait" is also positive in a relationship, but if you go for someone mabait, i think the relationship will somewhat end up in a scenario where one party dominates and the other succumbs to what the dominant party wants.

Now we go to, marunong as opposed to matalino. definitely in my point of view, marunong is greatly different to matalino. Let's start by defining the two terms, marunong generally is the term used for people who are knowledgeable of what they want to do and ought to do in life in short "smart" or perhaps "witty". It's more of like being in control or being "madiskarte". Marunong people are those i think who succeed in life because they are in command of their actions. Contrary to marunong is matalino. Matalino simply is being "intelligent". This quality perhaps defines a person who is genetically born to master what the book says and what the teacher teaches. Being matalino doesn't always mean that your road to success will be a lot easier, yeah you have a clear advantage of knowing what others might not, but at the end of the day it's the execution point that matters. In love, same goes, i think.. Being matalino doesn't guarantee a good relationship, i think being marunong does. When you know how to run your life that means you're marunong, and if you know how to run a good relationship, that is responding to all that come your way, definitely it'll last long. Meanwhile, if you're matalino, surely it also will help, but no amount of reading nor lecture will teach you how to love and make a relationship work. Lovers don't need formulas and theories to learn love, spontaneity is what's needed, and the marunongs have that.

Perhaps this quote may serve as a guideline for hopeless romantics and loveless people like me, but i think it really points out important notes. Love someone whom you think will do you good in your relationship, that is someone who would love you for your positive characteristics and someone who would boldly confront you and eventually correct your negativities. Love someone whom you think has control of his/her life and a clear direction of what he/she wants to be not someone who is bound by what books tell. Love and look for someone who'd make a difference in your life and change you for the better, not someone who'd run your life for you. Love and look for someone who is mabuti and marunong, no more no less...

Allan, thanks for the quote, keep it coming..btw, get over you know who na, i'm sure someone better will arrive. tc.