"i woke up fallen so deeply in love with the wrong person,
wrong time and wrong place
But then, one day, I've realized that
it's not the person, time nor place that's wrong...
But my expectations of a love story..
This was sent via sms by *prince ace*. Like my previous entry, i did make a reflection on a tagalog quote, now i'm doing it again.
Being a cheesy and mushy creature, quotes like this really hit me. As a result, i relate it to my own life.
I have had my own series of falling in love moments and as of now, nothing worked out. *sad puppy eyes*... Well, we never even got to where i wanted us to be. And that made me wonder about the things that were wrong.
Reading this quote made me conclude that maybe, just maybe, my expectations of my version of a love story may have been the reason why nothing worked out. I've come to realize that there was nothing wrong with the person i loved, with the time we were in love and even with the place we were in to. What i was thinking and expecting was the culprit. Expectations really could kill you and kill the love you have for another person.
I was too idealistic. I pictured love as a feeling or a state close to perfection. But i guess it's not. Falling in love was totally breath taking but getting hurt was the complete opposite. It's like breathing under water, impossible and difficult... I expected that the person i fell in love with would fall in love with me too. Turned out that i was the only one giving love and i received nothing. i expected that we were getting there but i assumed too much. We got ultimately close and i thought that this was the sign, but it turned out to be all wrong, all that happened were all under the bounds of friendship, nothing more nothing less. I failed to recognize my place in that person's life, and for that, I was left behind, left alone - aching..
I moved on eventually. (Hmmm, did i?) Now I live my own life, not under the shadow of the love i felt for that person before, but with the love i have for myself and the hope of finding my one true love. One thing's for sure, lessons were learned and i am stronger now. Now, what i have with me are not expectations but guidelines that are meant to aid my heart whenever it beats, whenever it falls, whenever it starts to love and whenever it starts to get hurt.
wrong time and wrong place
But then, one day, I've realized that
it's not the person, time nor place that's wrong...
But my expectations of a love story..
This was sent via sms by *prince ace*. Like my previous entry, i did make a reflection on a tagalog quote, now i'm doing it again.
Being a cheesy and mushy creature, quotes like this really hit me. As a result, i relate it to my own life.
I have had my own series of falling in love moments and as of now, nothing worked out. *sad puppy eyes*... Well, we never even got to where i wanted us to be. And that made me wonder about the things that were wrong.
Reading this quote made me conclude that maybe, just maybe, my expectations of my version of a love story may have been the reason why nothing worked out. I've come to realize that there was nothing wrong with the person i loved, with the time we were in love and even with the place we were in to. What i was thinking and expecting was the culprit. Expectations really could kill you and kill the love you have for another person.
I was too idealistic. I pictured love as a feeling or a state close to perfection. But i guess it's not. Falling in love was totally breath taking but getting hurt was the complete opposite. It's like breathing under water, impossible and difficult... I expected that the person i fell in love with would fall in love with me too. Turned out that i was the only one giving love and i received nothing. i expected that we were getting there but i assumed too much. We got ultimately close and i thought that this was the sign, but it turned out to be all wrong, all that happened were all under the bounds of friendship, nothing more nothing less. I failed to recognize my place in that person's life, and for that, I was left behind, left alone - aching..
I moved on eventually. (Hmmm, did i?) Now I live my own life, not under the shadow of the love i felt for that person before, but with the love i have for myself and the hope of finding my one true love. One thing's for sure, lessons were learned and i am stronger now. Now, what i have with me are not expectations but guidelines that are meant to aid my heart whenever it beats, whenever it falls, whenever it starts to love and whenever it starts to get hurt.
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